*YouTube voice* Hey everyone!
Thank you for stopping by my little corner of the internet. I first made this post for my About section but I did some rearranging and wanted to make my About Me section a bit more short, sweet, and professional.
Here, I want to get into a little bit more personal (and not so professional) stuff.
My name is Tammy Shiann (shy-AN; pronounced like the capital of Wyoming - if you don’t know here— I googled it for you). I arrived on Earth in '91 (Taurus bb ♉︎) in the city of Montclair, CA. Later on, due to my father's job at the time, we moved to Oregon, then back to California, and then we ended up in Arizona in 2003. I’ve always had a love for dancing and performing, whether it was putting on world tours within the confines of my bedroom, participating in drama club, plays, dance recitals, or talent shows at school, or even acting out The Wizard of Oz or Beauty and the Beast in front of my parents in the living room.
Writing also became a passion of mine from a young age. During fourth grade, I had an assignment that involved storytelling. I decided to center mine around the (true) ghostly tale of a summer camp I had attended for a couple of seasons. To my surprise, my story was chosen to be performed in the school play. The pride shown by my parents at that moment is a memory etched in my mind. Perhaps it was this experience that fueled my aspiration to transform my writing into something visually captivating.
Growing up during the time of dial-up internet, floppy discs, MySpace, and AIM, it’s mind-blowing to witness the evolution into an era dominated by smartphones, Apple Vision Pro, and TikTok.
I remember creating my first blog on Xanga, then Yahoo GeoCities at the early age of 13. Does anyone GeoCities? Back then, my GeoCities blog revolved around current fashion trends which, at the time, were Ugg Boots, ripped jeans, Hollister, and Abercrombie layered shirts. I also dove into a bit of pop culture and even dedicated a page to news for my school. Regrettably, this venture was short-lived as the school administration and my parents became aware of my blog. Which wouldn’t have been too terrible if not for a few remarks I may have made about a girl at my school, who, I must emphasize, was not particularly kind to me. This eventually led to me having to shut it down.
At 14, I decided to explore the world of modeling and acting by enrolling in classes. However, being in the midst of adolescence, I struggled with feelings of awkwardness and a lack of self-confidence, which ultimately led me to not pursue those interests beyond the completion of the classes. However, as I would find out, that was a dream that would never end up fading.
14 is also the age I began to smoke weed and also had sex for the first time. Obviously, not my proudest moment. But hey, I’m writing to be honest, not to make myself look like a perfect angel.
By 15, I got my first job experience, I’m sure like many people, at none other than McDonald's (Fun Fact: It lasted merely a couple of months, and I distinctly recall shedding multiple tears when assigned to the drive-thru, resulting in immediately removing me from that position). I guess it wasn’t too long after that, I realized…I’m really going to struggle with this thing called a “normal” job.
At 16, I had gone to my first rave (and yes participated in the consumption of drugs - 10/10 DOn’t recommend — see what I did there? No? Good.)
After my 18th birthday, I started dancing (pole included) (more stories on that eventually).
18 is also when I discovered go-go dancing ("You mean I can dance on a platform or stage, not have to take 98% of my clothes off and still get paid? Count me in!)
Starting to be around the club scene at 18 years old is not something I would recommend for everyone but it gave me lots of interesting experiences and stories to tell. I also got to meet some cool people in the process. However, I was introduced to some suspicious humans and dark parts of the industry.
Now, here we are in 2023, I find myself wondering what I should write about. I have matured a lot and gained about 19 years of life experience now compared to 2004. However, I don’t have much advice to offer, nor am I a celebrity or public figure... yet. The days of partying that represented my twenties are now a thing of the past as I now embrace my thirties (now 32). It took me some time to reach a point where I no longer felt excessively lagging in life because of my past involvement in partying. Nonetheless, I am a human fueled by different aspirations, dreams, and multiple compelling stories to share, no matter how old I am. Though I feel a bit of imposter syndrome (when it comes to almost everything I do), I firmly believe there are individuals (even if just one) out there who would find entertainment and comfort in it. Maybe my stories could ignite inspiration within others, encouraging them to share their own.
In this blog, I'll get back to my OG 2004 days of covering some pop culture events and reviewing some tv shows and movies. I'll also dive a little deeper into more of the stories that have made me who I am today (the good ones and the bad ones—again I’m not an angel). Some of the moments I share may not be my proudest, but my intention with any platform I have (big or small) is to be as real and transparent as possible (there are enough filtered and manufactured media/people out there already). My eventual goal is to turn some of my stories into a book that can be turned into a tv show or film.
Thank you again for bearing with me while I figure out what it is that I'm doing with my little planet here (thx to the help of Wix s/o), Truthfully, I have reached a point where I've grown exhausted of the repetitive nature that is Instagram, Twitter, and the pervasive social media platforms that influence our daily lives (although I do use them daily myself). It has begun to feel restrictive, hindering my creative freedom and limiting the scope of what I want to share.
So if you made it this far, here's a gold star
Love,
Tammy
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